I just feel so miserable

i feel miserable. i cant sleep, again. i am tired but so overtired that i cant close my eyes. i think i’m in a bit of mania. i am not bipolar but this feels weird. like i have lots of energy. and i cant sit still. and i cant go to sleep. even tho its 2 AM.

is mania having tons of energy and wanting to go go go even though you’ve already been up for 16 hours?

is it not being able to sit still? being agitated and anci?

Well I am all of those things and more. I am frantically trying to think of ways to distract myself. As you all know I am in respite so not at home. So what I can do is limited.

anyone got any ideas? Nitro is sprawled out on the couch. Its a dogs life ❤ I want to be him.
carol anne

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Author: Carol anne

I am in my mid 40's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

11 thoughts on “I just feel so miserable”

  1. Sounds like mania to me. Have you eaten anything with lots of sugar? Are you sharing the feelings of another jumpy part in the system? I don’t really have any suggestions as I’ve never had that problem. Have you got any relaxing music you could listen to? xxx

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    1. I didn’t eat anything sugary. I probably am feeling feelings of someone else, just know who this is the thing, I will try and find out though, yes I have some relaxing music that I can turn on

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      1. Oh dear. Still up, are you? GEEZ. Well be happy to know if you are awake and bored, you now know someone who sleeps days.

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  2. Well it sounds very similarly to mania for me. It’s awful when you feel so energetic at night, I haven’t any idea what could ’cause it for you. For me it’s definitely sleeping during the day or some strong feelings or things like that. It’s good that you slept those 2 hours, but definitely too little, it’s a pity. I am also very often jealous about Misha, I mean about his lifestyle. He still sleeps, his life is like heaven, he really looks like he’s always happy. I don’t know whether I’d like to be him or to be a cat or a dog in general, but I often imagine how great it would be if I could all hide in his fur. It’s so warm, soft and safe, and I like the sound of Misha’s breath, so I’d hear it there all the time. Dream! So I think I get you. Hugs. 🙂

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