god this is so frustrating and annoying. i’m wide awake. wide awake at almost 2 AM. i have therapy in 8 hours. it looks like i’m not going to sleep tonight even with my meds on bord.
how do you cope with no sleep? anyone got any ideas for things to do to distract myself from the crazy thoughts in my head?
my head is like a whirlwind tonight. crazy thoughts buzzing all around it.
i’m thinking a lot about my dad tonight. he’s not well at all. its becoming more and more noticeable with each day. first his bowel, now its his back, i think the two are related somehow.
he’s barely eating, he is deficient in vitamin d and calcium as well. he wants it fixed but he doesnt want to stop drinking. he wants to do things on his terms, he wont listen to any of us we’re wasting our time and breath.
i’m worried. really, really worried.
probably the worry and stress of it all is keeping me up too. plus my stomach is growling at me. i dont want to eat anything though. they say the middle of the night isnt a good time to eat. plus my aunts noticed my weight loss tonight, which made me really chuffed. i dont want to ruin it.
i suppose i had better try again for some sleep.
night all, xo