struggling to sleep

i cant sleep. i tried, oh how i tried. i layed down, tried to read, couldnt concentrate on the book so stopped. did manage to eventually fall off to sleep after taking meds to help with that. but only slept for about 3 hours. woke at 3 AM and got up and have stayed awake and up since then. just been watching tv and messing around online. there is some internal struggles going on with some insiders. i can hear crying and some fighting amongst insiders. it sounds far away like its not close enough that i can make out the voices or whose involved or what is being said. i’m sure i’ll find out soon though. we’ve been losing time lately too. not tonight but lots over the past week. thats scary. its scary to come to and have no idea what is going on or where you are or what you’ve been doing saying. so i am thinking about that tonight too. i am trying to think of ways i can prevent it. i talked a little to eileen about it. she is concerned that its happening so often to us. my pa kristen is coming this morning. i dont have to go anywhere because my grocery shopping is already done. so she will just do housework and make me breakfast. my house needs a good cleaning anyway. did you ever notice the tv is shit at night? i have the news on right now. there’s nothing good that I can watch.


Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

28 thoughts on “struggling to sleep”

  1. I am up to, though it’s almost 1 am. Pain is keeping me up. Every time I lie down, my foot or ankle gives me a new pain. Then i sit up and it settles down. So annoying. Hope you can nap during the day

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  2. The tv IS shit at night!!!!! What ever will we do. It is 3 am here and i am still awake and I have therapy tomorrow and need to sleep a few hours. Ugh. Im looking for the poem that wendy wrote

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  3. You’re not alone. 🙂 This night was hard for me too. It’s a bit strange that you can’t sleep after such an intense session that you guys had yesterday, maybe it’s so that you need a good, long sleep, but aren’t able to fall asleep because of all that chaos inside? It would be good if you could nap during the day. Hugs. 🙂

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  4. Sleeping is all so very hard for me as well. I hope you’re able to get better at it than I am but what I really need for sleep is pure quietness with no external noises (hard to do living in an apartment).
    Best thing I’ve found is Blue Blocking glasses at night to block out blue light from screens. Herbal decaffeinated tea and grapes also help aid in sleep as well

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      1. Natural and helps a bit but not recommended for extended use because it can screw with your body’s natural production of it. But it does work wonders. Especially if you’re adjusting to a new timezone and having trouble going to sleep when you should.

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  5. I hope things have calmed down in the system and that you’ve caught up on what the others have been up to. I’m sure these absences you’ve been having haven’t done great things for your bank account if some others have been taking taxis without your knowledge.

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  6. I never could sleep at night, as well. I needed to be fully exerted and drained for me to enjoy at least five hours of dreamless sleep. I mean I couldn’t just toss and turn around in bed. I needed to go to school and well, I couldn’t show up looking like the walking dead 🙂
    I think the best solution is to either go for a run, get a Netflix Subscription or read.
    Personally, I used to alternate between all three.
    You’ll find that watching Tv and reading, in the night, alone with only a night lamp and stuff toys for company can get quite tiring.
    I assure you, your eyes will start to droop and you’ll be asleep in no time.
    ~ Tahli. ❤

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  7. I can sympathise. I’ve had terrible sleep problems in the past. I’ve managed to control it now and sleep fairly well. In fact I’ve just decided to start a blog with a sleep course available on it. Check it out if you like, some of the posts might help with your insomnia.

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