Poetry

TURNING SPINNING FALLING DOWN
SOMEONE PLEASE CATCH US BEFORE WE HIT THE GROUND
BREAKING, SHATTERING, FILLING OUR HEART WITH SORROW SO EXTREME
COMFORT WE DO NOT FIND ANYWHERE
NOR DOES IT SEEM TO BE WITHIN ARMS REACH
SHAME SO HIDDEN
YET UNFAIR BLAME SO STRONG
BETRAYAL THAT CUTS DEEPER THAN DEEP
LEAVING SCARS THAT RAMIN THOUGH HIDDEN SECRETLY
ANOTHER LIFE SHATTERED FOR THEIR OWN SELFISH GAIN
HOPE SNATCHED AWAY CONSTANTLY
MADE A RAG TO WIPE THEIR FILTH ON
OH PLEASE, OH PLEASE
CANT YOU JUST LEAVE US THE HELL ALONE?
WE DID NOT ASK FOR THIS PAIN THAT WE NOW BEAR
NOR NIGHTMARES DAY AND NIGHT
OF MEMORIES THAT FLOOD US ONCE AGAIN
I AM AFRAID BUT HOW CAN I BE
WHO PROTECTS A PROTECTOR?
OR COMFORTS A COMFORTER?
WHO CRADLES THE CHILDREN THAT WEEP ALONE WITHIN AT NIGHT?
WHEN TAUGHT THAT LOVE AND AFFECTION AND COMFORT ARE NOT ALLOWED
HOW THEN DO YOU BREAK THAT ENDLESS CYCLE OF BATTLING ONCE AGAIN ALONE?
HOW THEN DO YOU HEAL WHEN LOVE IS NOT ALLOWED?
PAIN SO EXTREME WE JUST WANT TO SCREAM
BUT SILENCE IS ALL THAT COMES OUT
YELLING IS NOT ALLOWED
OH PLEASE OH PLEASE
DO NOT THROW US AWAY
PLEASE DO NOT SAY WE ARE A DISGRACE OR A FREAK
ACCEPT US, PLEASE DO NOT REJECT US
WE ARE NOT A DISEASE WE HAVE FEELINGS TOO
IT HURTS, IT HURTS
THE MEMORIES AND PAIN
THE FEAR AND THE SHAME
MY HEAD IS SPINNING AND MY BODY IS ACHING
THESE HIDDEN SECRETS UNTOLD, TRAPPED BEHIND CLOSED DOORS STILL REMAIN
CAUSING SO MUCH PAIN TO GAIN
OH PLEASE OH PLEASE
I AM SO AFRAID
I WANT TO RUN, I WANT TO HIDE
OH PLEASE
LET OUR LIFE HAVE NOT BEEN LIVED IN VEIN
PLEASE OH PLEASE NOT FOR THEIR CRUEL SELFISH GAIN

WENDY

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

15 thoughts on “Poetry”

      1. I’m so sorry Wendy. My heart really feels for you. It sounded painful to write. I could feel all of the words very deeply. I would give you a hug if I could or let you rest your head on my shoulder so you didn’t feel this way.

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      1. If you want more interaction you need to up the number of blogs you read. When I was trying to grow I read more than 500 every day. Some days I would read 800. 50 simply isn’t enough and I think your results are revealing that fact. There is so much work involved in growing that I think people thinks it just happens. Growth doesn’t just happen, it is earned. 🙂

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