help someone anyone?

someone please help me. i am spinning out of control. emotions are washing over me, sad, anger, overwhelm, distress, anxiousness, every emotion is hitting me at top speed. i feel so alone and lonely. its 2:30 AM. dark thoughts are in my mind. go get a knife. cut. go take some pills. dont worry i wont do anything. that is why i am reaching out here. i am hoping that people will be up and awake and someone will talk to me. the kids are scared and some are mad. allie and jessika already wrote about their anger at karen leaving. other kids like lexi and taylor are crying and afraid. they are afraid that everyone we love will leave us. its just a mess. if someones up and awake we could use a friendly word of encouragement right about now.
carol anne


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

12 thoughts on “help someone anyone?”

  1. What with all the turmoil in the system with the kids, I’m not surprised it’s upsetting your apple cart. You must feel like mom trying to reassure the children that things will be all right. the kids can’t see that there was life before Karen and they had to adjust to her at first. I am a bit of a creature of habit with my relationships and it’s hard when something changes. I’m sure Dr. Barry and Eileen have your interests at heart and will do what they can. You just have to give Karen a system-sized hug on Wednesday. hugs. xxx

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  2. I’m sorry you are all having such a rough time. People leaving is scary and hard. Learning about new people and change are big responsibilities when there are many of you to comfort and encourage and pull together a lot is going on. Take a breathe, take time with each one, maybe a joint art project each drawing part of what they feel. Take care Carol Ann.

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  3. It’s 330 am here. I am just falling asleep. But I hear you. I hear all of you. Every one. Remember you can text me any time day or night. If I am awake I will text you right back. Sending love to you all


      1. Best of hope for good therapy and a nap. I was up until 4am and finally did sleep after taking something to help me sleep. I’m so sorry you didn’t sleep and have to go out on no sleep. I hope you can nap later.

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  4. I’m very very sorry that Karen must leave and that it’s so painful for you all. If you still need some help, I’m back and you can email me whenever you want, I’m still here. I wasn’t online for a while, ’cause I was in Stockholm and hadn’t wi-fi, but now I’m back, so just write if you need. Hope that now, after seeing Eileen, it’s a bit better. 🙂 Big hugs for you all. 🙂


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