alter post: emily and exercise

its emily
im 12 in case people wanted to know
and i have a confession to say
its that im kinda geting obsessed with exercise
and that is bad
becuase i am bulimic
sorry i dont write properly
sometims i spell words wrong
or make mistakes ok
but anyways back to exercise
yesterday wen we was walkin for 6 miles
i was delighted
i did not get tired out
i liked it
loved it even
and the grown ups are worried now
worried that i’ll try to do too much
exercis more than i should
i was going to walk for an hour tonight
but carol anne said not a chance
she only let us walk for 15 minutes
it feels good to see the numbers on the scale coming down
that is why its hard for me not to exercise
you cant just lose weight if you dont do exercise
but they all know its hard for me
becuase of my bulimia
its a rhuge trigger exercise is
but i am trying hard not to fall into bad patterns
does anyone else struggle with an eating disoder
its hard
i feel like a freak
a lot of times i do
butterfly hugs
emily age 12


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

8 thoughts on “alter post: emily and exercise”

  1. Emily, you’re not a freak, dear. You’d be amazed at all the girls your age who have an eating disorder. It’s a good thing that Carol Anne is controlling things because the idea is to lose weight and and have a healthy body. People who have eating disorders may be thin, but they’re not healthy. they can have heart trouble or other physical problems that can kill them. what Carol Anne is doing is good: she’s exercising for a little bit every day. It keeps her from straining her back-then she couldn’t exercise at all-but, along with her healthy eating, the pounds will come off. Just be patient. You’ll see. Hugs. xxx

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  2. Dear Emily,

    I hear you. I have a history of anorexia and I binge eat. I know what this is like.
    It may be hard for others to understand. May I suggest that Emily be brave and bring up the exercises and walking and losing weight to your therapist? This is very real,
    and very challenging.
    I just want you to know that you are not your weight.
    You are a good person independent of what the scale says.
    You are brave and courageous.


  3. Emily, I know it’s very tempting to excercise more and more if you know that then, when you’ll go on the scales, the numbers will come down very quickly. But if you’ll lose your weight too quickly, it’ll be very unhealthy. Your organism may not get used to it as quickly as you would like and you can feel really exhausted. It’s normal that we often want to lose our weight, but you must do it healthily. To do it healthily, you must lose your weight gradually. So you can’t excercise too much. It’s good that Carol ANne and other bigs in your system care and worry about you, because excercising too much can make you really a big harm. Excercising 15-20 minutes a day is absolutely enough and if you will do it, you’ll surely see that yyou’re losing your weight and it will be a healthy process. After some time you may excercise a bit more, but it all needs time. Try to think that if it’ll go slowly, you will be able to save this weight and still be fit, but if you’d start to excercise a lot and wanted to lose your weight really fast, it’s very possible that you could return to your old weight quickly. And remember that even if you won’t be lucky and won’t lose enough weight, it doesn’t mean that your worthless or unvaluable. You’re a very valuable, great girl and your weight doesn’t change it. 🙂 I wish you a big success with your weight loss. 🙂 Hugs. 🙂


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