hi. my name is jade. i am the internal therapist. i am also a watcher. yesterday i talked to eileen for the first time. our system was in chaos over the weekend, so much so that shirley came out, very disorientated and confused, she barely knows anything when she is out, she is fragile and easily spooked. it was shirley who got us to therapy yesterday, and eileen and her talked for a few minutes, but it was clear that she was struggling, she couldnt even tell eileen what year it was or what day it was. she knew she’d been out but she didnt know when she came out or for how long she’d been here. i knew though. eileen had her listen to see what she could hear, and she said she heard children crying, she said she could hear carol anne but that she couldnt see her. anyway then I decided I’d better come out and let eileen know what was happening. so i did. we talked a lot i had most of the rest of the session. we talked about how it is for us, kids managing the system. its always been like that. they will try to manage adult things, and the adults will let them. eileen wants us to change that. she asked me if i’d be open to doing some wrok with her around it and i said yes i would. i talked to her about flooring the entire system sometimes when I think we ned a reset. but that did not work this weekend. i did try putting everyone down but that was unsuccessful. I’m hoping over the next couple of weeks we can do some work to get some of the adults to step up and help more with things. i think a lot of them are afraid, because they dont interact in the world that often, thehy dont interact with other people. so well they dontknow how to be or what they should or shouldnt say. eileen said she’d help us with all that though. so I’m counting on her.