in need of some support

this is jade. we are very very suicidal. actually, emily is very very suicidal. she almost overdosed. i am scared. we’re alone, and have means to end it. trying desperately to do everything we can to manage this. manage the feelings. distract. cope. its all very well saying all that. doing it is another thing. just the feelings have overwhelmed us, memories have overwhelmed emily. she is unstable aned frightened and irrational. the scary thing is she could if she chose to block all of us and take the pills, without any of us knowing. she has that sort of power. right now i’m watching her like a hawk. i’m not letting her out of my sight. if anyones around if you have some time maybe we could talk?
jade and emily


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

25 thoughts on “in need of some support”

  1. call crisis or its equivalent to stay on the phone with you until you can either contract for safety or they can get to you to possibly go to the hospital until you are safe.

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  2. I understand how your feel. However should we be worried? Do you need someone to call 911? I feel scared and nervous sometimes when I see these types of posts. I understand people vent and that’s what blogs are for? But do we shoot by and do nothing? I hope you feel better soon. Remember suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please call for help or allow someone else to help you. Hope you’re all right. Hugs

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  3. Oh, I’m a bit scared. Though good to hear that’s a bit better now. I’m with you, just write if anything, will try to help. You should have someone near you to be with you. Maybe your mum could help? I know your relationship is difficult, but maybe her presence would help you? I’d really call someone and tell how situation is going if I was on your place. It’s good that you go to Dr Barry today. Lots of support, you’re not alone.


  4. Well, I’m sure you’ve had your appointment with Dr. Barry by now and I hope she was able to give you some suggestions. I think you did well though, keeping “Emily from doing something she shouldn’t. xxx


  5. I hope Dr. Barry helped each of you to feel safe and ok and helped to lift some of the darkness and bring in some light. Praying for some light to be brought it. I know the desperate feelings you were having are so intense. Praying those feelings have lessened.


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