i had a pretty good day. my pa came this morning. she helped me cook breakfast, and then we went grocery shopping. i only needed a couple of items. so we got done pretty quickly. when we came back to my house she did some housework. we had to wait for her boss to come to do a risk assessment, basically this paperwork is done once a year, they come out and talk about health and safety, if the PA has any concerns, I get asked if I have any concerns, a load of bullshit really, all formality. Anyway she eventually came and we got that over with. She was literally there for 10 minutes doing it. Well thats because we are happy and have no issues. Me and Kristen click, we gel, we dont make waves where there arent any. Once she left kristen had to leave too to go to her next job. I was going to go to the basement club but then decided not to go I decided to stay home and burn some of my dvd’s onto my computer. I’m trying to get all of my movies burned, but it takes forever to do it. My home help came in the afternoon to help me cook dinner, she came earlier than usual because she had an appointment to go to. I had meatballs with spaghetti for dinner and oh man it was delicious. The meatballs were seasoned and the sauce that I got for them was a tomato and herb sauce and it tasted amazing. Once my home help left i went to visit my friend norma. we didnt get up to much just hung out and talked and stuff. i’m pretty tired now but i cant sleep. i took my night meds but I’m feeling a little bit wound up. not sure why. just have a lot on my mind about therapy yesterday. there is more to our session that we havent written about yet but will soon. we’re still trying to process it all. I see dr. barry tomorrow morning, and my OT Mark. I almost forgot about the apt with Mark. I dont have my homework done for that appointment. I got sidetracked and totally forgot. I dont think Mark will mind, he’s pretty easy going. I bet he wont believe me when I tell him I dont have it done. I’m always so on the ball with everything. Another busy day tomorrow, if nothing else it will keep me distracted from thoughts of self harm, suicide, and overwhelm that are plaguing me tonight.