one week to go

one week until i see eileen again. i cant wait. it seems so long since I’ve seen her.
really I know its only been 2 weeks, but it seems longer. I think partly thats because I never saw dr. Barry last week either due to my damn ptsd flaring up.
At least this coming week I will have a phone check in with Eileen on Thursday. I think she’s already back from her holiday. I’m tempted to text her but I probably wont. But I’m really tempted to just to ask her if she’s ok and safe, to put my mind at ease.
I might just email her instead. It seems less intrusive. i dont want to bother her while she might be still on holiday.
I’m proud of myself and of us as a system for getting through these past two weeks. It wasnt easy. But we did it and we’re ok. We managed.
I think Eileen will be proud of us too.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “one week to go”

  1. You definitely have a reason to be proud of yourself! Two weeks seem to be long when you feel attached to someone and need this person and can reach out to her for this long. It must be the more difficult that you didn’t see Dr Barry recent week too. It’s nice that you’ll talk to Eileen on Thursday. Hope it’ll help you. I wouldn’t write to her now as she indeed may be still on the holidays, or if I’d write I’d only send her an email if I’d really be anxious about it whether she’s safe and OK.

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  2. I’m glad that you will be able to see Eileen in a week’s time and that you’ll be able to have a phone call on Thursday. I know you have missed her a lot especially with having to miss your appointment with Dr Barry last week too. I think you’ve all managed to cope with her absence really well – you have every right to be very proud of yourselves. I’m proud of you.

    I can understand that it must be tempting to text Eileen especially when you’ve missed her so much and are worried about her but I would give it another day if you can if you’re not sure if she’s still away. Perhaps, emailing would be a better option because, as you say, it’s less intrusive. Hugs to you, Carol anne, Ellie xxx

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    1. Yes I will give it a time I will give it another day at least, I don’t even know if I will text her and might just send an email tonight, that way she knows I am thinking of her but she knows she doesn’t have to respond to me

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