i wish

i wish i wish
that things were different
that i didnt know
that i didnt have to go
that the past didnt eat away at my soul
i wish i wish that i was whole
i wish for so much
i long to be normal
whatever normal looks like
for me normal would be
to get through a day
without flashbacks
to go through a night
without nightmares
to sleep without any cares
i wish i wish
i wish to be free
and to just be able to be light and carefree.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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