what is it that makes people go
is it when my mood is low
they have no time
rush off leaving me alone
is it because they see my neediness
and they dont want to deal with it
is it because i am too much
too broken
too damaged
too fragile
i share, they dont want to hear or care
so what now
i shut down
and stay on my own


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

7 thoughts on “Poetry”

      1. sure man, i was the same, had anxiety, depression, but i realised now as i awaken, that we have to fall in order to rise. please check out my blog, read some of my poems, maybe you get some insight


  1. Hmm… I really get it… Feel similar very often. But when I feel this way, I always try to think about people, who still are with me, like my parents or Zofijka – my sis – even if she doesn’t get me, but I absolutely don’t require it from her, or my best friend. It’s a strong feeling, I know, and it’s hard to deal with these thoughts sometimes, ’cause it may lead you to feel worthless or something like this, but I’d really recommend you to think about people who care about and for you and that you care about. Think maybe about Eileen, or your mum, I know she isn’t very supportive, but she still loves you and think about all the people who are supportive to you. If they are now with you, they’ll be still, if they will leave, it maybe means it should be so and they weren’t sincere with you. 🙂 And the last thing I can tell you, when I feel really alone and like nobody cares about me, there’s always Misha. It might seem strange for some people, but it really helps me, that he’s always beside me and I can just cuddle with him on the bed or just cry in his fur or tell him everything and he won’t judge me. 😀 So you should definitely think about Nitro in such moments. 🙂

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    1. Amelia you are always so wise, I do love Nigel and I can tell him anything I love his fur and cuddling into him your race when all else fails and I think nobody cares Nitro always cares, I know Eileen cares to and I know my mum does it her own way ☺️💟😘😘


  2. Thank you! 🙂 Yeah, animals are special in this that if you care for and about them, they do the same towards you. It’s great that you shared your thoughts, I suppose that even though I feel the same very often, I couldn’t express it so well. 🙂

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