I’m waiting for someone from the weekend team to call me. I think it is going to be Yvonne. She called me yesterday and I remember she said she’d call me today too.

i’m nervous. I need to talk to her about the suicidal thoughts. I dont think I should but I know its important to tell her how I am feeling so I will. I dont know her that well so I’m nervous about how she will react and how I will manage to open up to her.

I managed to eat breakfast and shower so that is a positive. My mom wants me to go to a holistic fare with her later this afternoon. I said I’d go. It will be a distraction if nothing else.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

5 thoughts on “Waiting”

  1. I hope that Yvonne, or whoever will cal you, will help you anyhow. Sometimes talking to someone is really helpful even if it’s hard to open up at the beginning. I completely get the fact that you are nervous, I’d be too for sure, it’s often veery, very difficult for me to talk about my feelings, sometimes even to people who I know, so the more to someone who I know just a little bit, even if this person is nice. Suicidal thoughts are quite a sensitive topic, so it’s even more complicated,but even though I’m sure you’ll manage with it. It’s good that you have something like the weekend team. And it’s very good that you will have a possibility of distraction today. Sometimes going out with such thoughts like this is rather challenging, but who knows, maybe it will help you.

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    1. Yvonne did call me. I did manage to open up to her. I told her about the suicidal thoughts and how I was feeling. She was very understanding. I think going out today is going to help me a lot. Distraction always helps me. XX


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