The suicidal thoughts are still with me. i’m feeling bla, low and flat. its like the thoughts are there, but I dont have the energy to do anything about them. Everything just feels like its going in slow motion. I did sleep good so that is a positive. But I did take sleep meds to help me sleep. I just wanted to blot the world out for a while. Thanks to you all for all the comments, I really appreciate them. I hope these thoughts will go away soon I want to enjoy the rest of my weekend.