i’m having a lot of suicidal ideation. i just took my night meds. i’m waiting for them to kick in. the thoughts are their though, but I have no plan, just a lot of fleating thoughts and they are dark and scary. Ug I hate this.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

20 thoughts on “suicidal”

  1. I know this it comes so quickly and does not let you go. How about taking some parts to a safe and comfortable place? We went to a service today and I was translating from German to English. I have to be busy as this week end is cruel, the dates are cruel and WE ARE AFRAID. I hope that the meds will work mine do not work at all. I asked for Haldol but they wont give it to me because of the side effects later. I showed them after “Truxal”. I do not want my mouth twisting and swallow without me wanting it. Take care

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    1. Yes the dates are very bad this weekend I agree, I’m just going to bed now, I’m done for the night, if I don’t go to bed I’m afraid I’ll do something stupid, so off to bed with me hopefully the medicine will kick in soon


  2. I hope that I’m not too late and that you’re feeling better now.
    I just want you to know that you’re not alone and I believe that you are strong to overcome this.
    Hugs from Singapore xoxo

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