i’m having a pretty good tuesday. despite my low mood, i slept well last night. i seem to be sleeping a lot lately. thats always the way when my mood is low though. i either sleep too much then, and then sometimes i cant sleep at all. there is no balance. yesterday a nurse called kay from the weekend team called me. she wasnt very good. she basically stayed on the phone for all of two minutes. she just asked me if i was safe, and when i told her I was she just said if I needed anything to ring them before 5 PM. and that was it. short and sweet. I missed michelles thoroughness. apparently this nurse seemed to think i didnt want to talk to her. which wasnt true at all. i would have talked to her if she’d have tried to engage with me. the rest of yesterday was spent packing for hospital. my mom helped me to do that. my bag is packed now, with everything that i will need. this morning my pa kristen was back, and I told her I would be going into hospital. she cleaned my house and made me breakfast and we chatted for a while. it was so good to have her back. i’m at the basement club now, and I’ll stay here for the rest of the day until around 4 PM. I didnt want to stay home and isolate. I prefer to come in and chat to other members, have some company. I’m feeling pretty down today. Flat and bla and just like everything is a huge effort. I hate when I feel like that. Looking forward to seeing dr. barry tomorrow. Am really missing eileen, will probably text her later today to tell her about going into hospital.