feeling cared for by dr. barry

so today my attachment issues are really bad. i’ve been crying on and off all day. the two male voices that I am hearing are very strong. they’ve been telling me that dr. barry hates me. that she doesnt care about me. that she wants rid of me. that she’s going to be mad at me when i see her.
so this morning amanda one of the nurses helped me have a shower. while i was in there she looked at my stomach. my stomach has an area that has abscesses on it. small little ones. one of them is open and stuff is oozing out of it. the others arent open but are very sore.
She told me she was going to get one of the junior doctors to look at it. I asked for a female since I am uncomfortable with males. So I’ve been waiting all day. No doctor has come to see me though.
then 10 minutes ago dr. barry came in. She said she’d like to look at it if that was ok. Ok? Yes. Of course its ok. I was so happy to see her. I showed my stomach to her and she was so caring. She said a swob needed to be taken and I needed to go on an antibiotic. She asked me if it was very sore. When she was leaving I called her back to my bedside.
I have something to give you, i said shyly.
Oh? She said.
I need to get my backpack.
Dont worry, I’ll get it for you, here it is, she said.
I reached in and took out her st. patricks day card that we hadnt given her. I handed it to her.
Here, we made this for you, the kids mostly made it, but i did have input too.
Thanks, Carol anne, she said with a big smile.
It feels so good to make cards for her because I know she really appreciates them.
And my attachment pain has lessened some because I’ve seen her and I know she’s ok, and I know she’s not mad at me.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

11 thoughts on “feeling cared for by dr. barry”

    1. I think she knew I was struggling. If she didnt know I am going to tell her when I see her on tuesday. I really appreciate that she was the one who came to me and looked after me. xxx


  1. Ah, those lying lying voices. I know you could live just fine and dandy without them. I’m glad Dr. Barry came by to see you. I wonder what causes those abscesses.


  2. voices are pesky buggers, aren’t they. They like to lie all the time and we believe them because we just do as they plant seeds of doubt in our heads. It really takes a lot of energy to reinforce that they are wrong and that the people around us aren’t going to harm us.I hope the meds kick in soon and the voices go away.


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