Inner turmoil

I really want to end it is. I just want to die. The pain is too great. I feel so alone. I feel so overwhelmed. Just let me end it, please, I can’t take any more. I’m so suicidal right now. I just want to end the pain. Nobody gets it. Nobody understands. Please God please let me in the pain. It’s so hard to live like this. It’s just so hard. I can’t take it any more. I’m done

I need a wheel, my only option is to end this.

I just

I need a wheel, my only option is to end this.
I just have to do this now. It’s what I need to do.
Someone help me. Please someone please. I just can’t take any more. I’m going crazy. Alone at home in my house on my own. I’m going crazy I’m really going crazy.

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

15 thoughts on “Inner turmoil”

  1. Thank you for stopping by our blog today to comment on our book review. You have no idea how much it means to me that you have been a follower of ours for so long. Sorry I have been mostly absent from the blog world for a while. I had no idea you were struggling so much. Please, go to the hospital if you need to. If there is one lesson from the book Robin and I wrote, it is that even when things feel most hopeless they are not. Also, healing takes time but is possible. Please, hang on and get whatever help you need to get through this very difficult time!

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    1. I am going to the hospital I think tomorrow, I have to see what my psychiatrist says whether she will admit me or not, hopefully she will. I think I need to be there. I’m glad I could stop by your blog and read your book with you it was very good. XXX

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  2. Perhaps you should call the mental health hotline or emergency hot line or whatever it is and talk to them. You did it once before back in December because you knew things were getting difficult.

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    1. I call the Samaritans and spoke to someone there for awhile, I’m feeling a little bit better now, still feeling down still feeling suicidal but not as hopeless. Things might get easier tomorrow hopefully


  3. it sounds like you are having a hard time right now. it may seems like there is no hope; that’s not true. feel free to contact me: i’ve been there myself. i understand. we can talk. no psychobable. you need a willing ear. i raise my hand. part of reason you are so close to the edge is you have no one turn to, no connections. i’ll can be a connection for you. i can’t guarantee miracles. hell, no one can. reach out if you want.

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    1. Thank you so much you are so kind I really appreciate your offer of support, I really feel alone at the moment so I might email you, thank you again, you are credible a kind person that was meant to say an incredibly kind person 🙂


  4. I’m sorry, Carol anne – I’ve only just seen this post. I do hope you aren’t feeling so desperate now, having spoken to the Samaritans. Hopefully, it’s not too long before you get to see Dr Barry. Thinking of you with love, Ellie xxx ❤

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