we are very distressed right now. the voices the two male voices we’ve been hearing are very strong. they are telling us to hurt ourselves. telling us we need to kill ourselves. we need to die. we need to just end it.
i am struggling to stay present. we are dissociating a lot right now. our anxiety is through the roof. on a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being the worst its at an 11. i asked denise if i could meet her to talk to her because colette is off today. she said she’d meet me for a few minutes at 1:45. i will see dr. barry tomorrow but I might get denise to ring her today.
I’m finding it hard to cope. I hate psychotic symptoms. I’m scared we’ll do something. I’m scared we’ll dissociate badly and do something while in a dissociative state.
I’m just so scared.