asking dr. barry to hospitalise us

my mom just called me. and she totally surprised me. she asked me why i sounded so sad. i said i felt terrible. i said i felt low and despairing. was having hallucinations and felt suicidal.
and you know what she said to me?
ask dr. barry to hospitalise you tomorrow!
I was floored! My mom does not like psych hospitals. she’s totally against them, totally against meds, totally doesnt understand mental illness or get how bad it can be for me!
for her to say this, she must really realise that somethings seriously wrong with us.
she told me to just ask dr barry tomorrow, and see what she says. i will, but i’m kinda scared. i dont like to tell her what to do. i dont want her to say i’m trying to make decisions but moms probably right. it probably is time to go in.
dr. barry will hopefully agree with me, hoping there is a bed available.
If not, I could be waiting a couple days!
There is so much going on for us though. suicidal thoughts, hallucinations, hearing voices, increased anxiety, and increased ptsd symptoms!
Do I think the hospital will help? I dont know. But it cant hurt. Its safe in there most of the time. I need a safe place to be where I am being looked after by staff.
So I will ask to go in tomorrow.
carol anne

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “asking dr. barry to hospitalise us”

  1. It sounds like your mom really gets it this time. I think it’s a good idea as well for you to go in. It sounds like your meds are a bit messed up, especially the injection you were supposed to get. I hope there will be a bed open for you. I’d hate to have you dissociate and do something that’s not in your best interest. hugs. xxxx

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    1. Yeah. I’m feeling very on safe at the moment. I can’t sleep. I’m just staying up staying awake because I’m too afraid to do anything else. Feeling very overwhelmed and suicidal and very alone

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