Jess

I miss my partner. I miss her so much. I wish she wasnt in a residential psych unit.
she’s 6000 miles from me. and i miss her. i miss everything about her.
i miss her calling me munchy. i miss calling her jess mess.
i miss how she knew me, knew every little thing about me, i’d say, besides eileen and dr. barry, she is the one person who truly knew everything about me.
she knows my good points, and my flaws, she knew what triggered me, just like I knew similar things about her. I still know them.
I can talk to her if I call her. But other than that we dont talk. She’ll be in residential 2 years in May. And there is no sign of her moving out of that place she’s in.
I wish I could go visit her. But I cant.
I am beyond upset and sad and frustrated. i just want to talk to her, save her. but I cant.
If I could I would go there and take her out of there and move in with her and look after her take care of her and her insiders.
I would do that for them, give up my own care here and move to america to be with them.
but its not that simple.
Why is nothing simple?

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “Jess”

  1. you are right, nothing is ever simple for some of us. it shouldn’t be that way. there should be times of happiness, times of rest and peace, times of simpleness and times of sadness and strife and struggle. but it shouldn’t all be difficult. sometimes we should win, be victorious over our struggles. sometimes things should work out how we plan. but mostly i just feel like banging my head against the wall until it all stops, until it just has gone.

    i’m sorry for the situation you are in with Jess. it sounds like she now needs a lot more care than before, that she is not really capable of being the same person to you as she once was. i understand how you want to be there for her, give her the best of everything. and i wish there was a way, but again, things are never that simple.

    sending my most heartfelt (((hugs)))

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