I had mentoring this morning

just finished a mentoring session with colette. it was a really good session. we talked about lots of things. we talked about my sleep. i decided i am going to try to get a bedtime routine in place. usually i just go to bed whenever. but this coming week i am going to go to bed at 11 PM every night. I will take my meds at 10 PM. then I will have a herbal tea, I am going to stop drinking cafinated beverages after 7 PM. I will drink the tea, and watch some tv from 9 PM to 11 PM. Then I will try to sleep. At least then I can say to dr. Barry I am not sleeping, I tried the bedtime routine, and it failed or it worked. Hopefully it will work. We talked about my mood being up and down. I tried to describe to colette how I was feeling. Did not do a good job of that though. Its hard to describe the way my mood is. Its like up and then all of a sudden it plummets. I hate when it happens. We talked about anniversary dates, and I told colette that lately there has been a few dates related to my abuse and she told me to try and think of days when I was strong and did something good, so then I thought of the day I spoke out, the day I told about the abuse, it was in december, and she said I need to celebrate that day. I also told her about the day I decided that I was going to publish my story. She kept saying how strong i am and how i am a hero to so many people. Thats probably not true but it was nice of her to say so. i felt validated. We talked about my inner child. That was a kinda weird conversation. I didnt think she knew about inner child stuff. But we talked about my inner child and she told me that I need to try to keep her safe and protect her. She asked me what do I do when I am having a flashback. I told her I try to talk myself down try to tell myself that its not then and I am safe and its 2017 and I am ok. She said keep talking to your inner child. Tell her she is safe and you will protect her. So that is what I am going to do, except its not just one child, its many kids because of the did. So yeah mentoring was good today.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

8 thoughts on “I had mentoring this morning”

  1. Looking after my inner child is something that was said to me in counselling sessions too. It’s hard, but it does get easier and with the right support like you have, you will get there. Looking after my inner child is something that I still do, even after my counselling.

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  2. I have noticed that if I take my meds around 730 pm, I sleep better than if I take them later. It take a lot for me to get to sleep and last night was hard because of pain. but I am usually asleep by midnight, most nights anyway. Hope the routine works for you.

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