therapy today and I dont want to go!

i have therapy today at 1:45. and i dont want to go. i do, but i dont. how is that even possible? reason i dont want to go? i dont want to talk about hard things. but isnt that the reason for therapy? to discuss the hard stuff? i’m just so nervous. the work we are doing is getting hard. and i feel i cant go there. i’m sure i’ll feel better once i get there. eileen has a way of making us feel safe. her presence alone is just sootheing. just have to try not to stress too much about it before i get there.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

11 thoughts on “therapy today and I dont want to go!”

  1. I get that way sometimes before I go to see my psychologist. Especially when I know we’ll be dealing with difficult topics. But it always turns out ok. From what you’ve said about Eileen she’ll make sure that things are safe for ye and will make ye feel better. Big hugs. Xxxx.

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  2. Well, just look at it this way: Eileen wouldn’t have you talking about hard stuff if she didn’t think you ready for it. Plus, some of the insiders are feeling brave and need to express themselves as well with her. Of course, by the time youread this, hopefully you will have gone and it’s all over with. xx

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  3. hey! did you get the video to work? I checked my email but I’m not sure if I accidently deleted it!!!! if you sent it could you send it again? I hope your therapy goes well. I have it tomorrow and I don’t want to go either!!!!!!

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  4. You got this ! Therapy is hard work. I have been going through the same thing. Sometimes the times I tell myself I don’t want to go, is actually when I need to go. For me what has helped when I don’t want to go I just be honest with my therapist and say I don’t want to come today. And then he helps me analyze why I don’t want to come in. Good luck.

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  5. That which resists, persists. Maybe a part of you really doesn’t want to let go of something that is stubborn (even because part of you ‘likes’ it for some reason). Be brave and do it anyway.

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