i have therapy today at 1:45. and i dont want to go. i do, but i dont. how is that even possible? reason i dont want to go? i dont want to talk about hard things. but isnt that the reason for therapy? to discuss the hard stuff? i’m just so nervous. the work we are doing is getting hard. and i feel i cant go there. i’m sure i’ll feel better once i get there. eileen has a way of making us feel safe. her presence alone is just sootheing. just have to try not to stress too much about it before i get there.