so we saw dr. barry today. great apt as always. but at the end she told us she’s taking a week off next week. i hate when she springs it on us. and she knows i hate it. she said an opportunity just came up and she has a week coming to her and so she decided to take it next week because she was able to get cover. i know its hard for her to get cover. and she rarely takes breaks. and when she does she tries to prepare us. so now i dont see her for two weeks. i’m trying to talk myself down. say that i’ll manage. i’ve done it before. when i was in hospital last year when i got that stomach bug i didnt see her for 3 weeks. but omg that was hard. this is going to suck. i miss her already and i havent even gone 24 hours yet without seeing her. she also told me today that she is taking the first week of her summer holidays at the end of april. see how she likes to prepare me? i’m panicking. i think i can manage. but right now my head says no. my head says i need her. and this sucks and i cant do this. and right now i hate my head. and i hate that i am so attached to dr. barry. because my attachment is so messed up. ug. sigh.