dr. barry is on leave next week, this is gonna suck

so we saw dr. barry today. great apt as always. but at the end she told us she’s taking a week off next week. i hate when she springs it on us. and she knows i hate it. she said an opportunity just came up and she has a week coming to her and so she decided to take it next week because she was able to get cover. i know its hard for her to get cover. and she rarely takes breaks. and when she does she tries to prepare us. so now i dont see her for two weeks. i’m trying to talk myself down. say that i’ll manage. i’ve done it before. when i was in hospital last year when i got that stomach bug i didnt see her for 3 weeks. but omg that was hard. this is going to suck. i miss her already and i havent even gone 24 hours yet without seeing her. she also told me today that she is taking the first week of her summer holidays at the end of april. see how she likes to prepare me? i’m panicking. i think i can manage. but right now my head says no. my head says i need her. and this sucks and i cant do this. and right now i hate my head. and i hate that i am so attached to dr. barry. because my attachment is so messed up. ug. sigh.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

8 thoughts on “dr. barry is on leave next week, this is gonna suck”

  1. I’ve learned from experience that the anticipation is often worse than the actual fact. You’ll manage because that will be what you have to do. If not, you can always go and see the person covering for her. You could also keep a sort of journal on the days you don’t see her and save it and show it to her when she comes back. that way, you’ll be kind of talking to her, but not getting immediate feedback. xxx

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  2. Just a thought, maybe write her a letter on the day that you usually have the appointment? Carry it on as though you were having a conversation with her. Explain how you are feeling about her absence and the ways you are working through it. You could give it to her later when she’s back or even blog it instead. It might help continue the connection even if she can’t reply straight away.

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  3. I know exactly how you feel. Last week my psychologist told me she would be taking this week off. I tried to be strong but today is the day I would normally see her and I’m struggling a bit. But I’ve started to write her an email as if I was in her office and seeing her face to face and I’m telling her how things are with me and how I’m managing and how my week has been. It’s helping a bit. I’m not going to send the email. Just writing it as if she’s here with me. Maybe you could try that? It might help. I hope you’re ok. I understand how you’re feeling. Big hugs. Xxxx.

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