frustrated with my job coach

so my job coach is frustrating me and i am not thrilled with him right now. today karen r my social worker rang me. last friday the job coach had asked me if he could talk to her about my financial situation, to see if there was anything we could do about transport, on the off chance i did go to work, so that i wouldnt have to spend all my money getting to and from work in a taxi. i obligingly gave him karen’s number. this morning she called me and asked for my permission to talk to him which i gladly gave. she asked me if i had told him my diagnosis. i said well sorta. i have told him i have ptsd and dissociation but i didnt say i had full blown did. i didnt want to freak him out. i also told him i had depression and anxiety. so we hung up and karen told me she would call him back. about 20 mins later she called me back. and she was like, carol anne, you need to call him and talk to him. so i’m like what, why? and she says well he didnt want to talk to me about finances, he wanted to talk to me about your recovery! she reassured me she hadnt said anything, and she hadnt told him my full diagnosis. but apparently when i told him last week that i see dr. barry weekly, that shocked him. karen was like well carol anne, the thing is you havent been fully honest with him, so he’s thinking your very unstable. she was like well if i didnt know you and you were coming to me if i was a job coach and if you told me you had anxiety and depression and ptsd and you were seeing a psychiatrist weekly i would think wow she’s really unwell and in no fit state to work. so ok i get it. i get that he was concerned. i get that he thinks i’m unwell and not fit to work. but the thing that flipping irritates me about it is this. why did he give me one reason saying it was my money situation and that a minimum entry level job wouldnt make me better off, but then he went to karen and said all this shit about my recovery and that i am not fit to work because i see a psychiatrist weekly and i am not well enough. why couldnt he have been honest with me? i rang him back and he said absolutely nothing to me about my illness or being too ill to work. so why he’s avoiding it i dont know. i didnt bring it up with him either though. i figure what’s the point? his mind is made up. and so is mine. i’m going to quit seeing him. i’m going to stick to volunteering and maybe it will lead to better things. its just frustrating that he couldnt be honest with me. karen did say to me but remember, you havent been completely honest with him either. well hell if i had told him about the did he probably would have said something far worse! i’m not even going there! i’m done and so what i need to see a psychiatrist weekly if thats how it is its how it is.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “frustrated with my job coach”

  1. Mental illness always seems to freak people out. If you’d been in a wheelchair and seeing a physical therapist once a week, there’d probably have been little problem. Also, there’s the blindness thing. I had a job person string me along for months until I just quit because they didn’t want to admit that they felt weird about my blindness and didn’t know how to go about getting me a job. I guess it’s a good thing he doesn’t know about your system. I know you’re pretty much the boss so is everyone in your system pretty cool about you’re getting a part-time job?

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    1. Kind of, they’re working on it, but I don’t think I’m going to get a part-time job no I think I’m just going to focus on my volunteering at the basement club and see what that leads to. He must’ve been freaked out I don’t know why he acted the way he did but I’m glad it happened now and not string me along for months on end

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  2. Hello carol anne,

    It makes sense that you’d not be completely honest with hi, just as it does that he might not be with you. If he doesn’t know how you’ll react, and thinks you unstable or unwell, why would he be honest with you? This is one of the many reasons that mental health awareness is so important. It is horribly painful that he wouldn’t be honest with you about this. You can’t address an issue that remains unspoken hen it shouldn’t be.

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    1. I know, I would’ve preferred if you was honest but I suppose it’s just like I wasn’t honest with him either and maybe he thought I’d react badly or something so maybe he thought he speak to Karen or speak to Mark my OT instead

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