i had a good monday. didnt get up to much besides therapy. am always drained after session. but had to stay up because my home help was coming to help me cook dinner. i texted her to ask her to bring milk because i dissociated on the way home and forgot it. she never got my text, she said her phone lost coverage. so when she came she had no milk, but she went to the local shop for me which is only 5 minutes away. when she left i crawled into bed. i was trying to stay awake until a decent hour like 9 pm or 10 pm but i just couldnt. and now because i slept earlier i am up and wide awake. aw well. what can you do.
my pa kristen comes this morning. i have to go out to run some errands. i need to pick up my meds at the pharmacy. i get my meds blister packed, and the HSE which is our local health service have this stupid new rule that you can only get 7 days worth of meds at a time, and in order to get the next weeks worth you need to present yourself at the pharmacy. the pharmacy delivers but i wont be here tomorrow afternoon and on wednesday i see dr. barry in the morning so i would just miss the delivery guy again then as well. so kristen is going to take me.
i also need to go get groceries. i should probably make a list so i dont overspend. maybe i will do that when kristen gets here. i have a coupon for 10 euro off but the catch is i have to spend 50 euro first. that wont be hard lol. but i really dont want to spend more than that. i only have 2 hours this morning with kristen so i need to be quick doing my grocery shopping and going to the pharmacy. i also have to go to the ATM to get money out.
Then in the afternoon I will be meeting with my job coach. It is our second meeting. He said we are going to do profiling, whatever that entails. I think its something about honing in on my work related skills and what kinda job would best suit me, something like that. I like this job coach. I find him very approachable. he knows I have a mental illness and he knows my limitations and he’s ok with that. granted the agency he works for is particularly for people with disabilities or long term illnesses but still. It feels good to know he’s in my corner and isnt pushing me to do things I dont feel ready to do or cant do. I hope it wont take too long to find a job. I am excited to start earning money but nervous too. I’ve never had a job before. It will be all new to me. I’m wondering how it will go. I guess we’ll wait and see.