so i’m up and its not even 5 AM. been awake for a while so eventually just decided i’d get up. no point to lying there tossing and turning and thinking. thinking when i’m in a fragile state is dangerous for me. my thoughts overwhelme me really quick so yeah. now that i am up i made myself some tea and have the radio on. i’ve been checking others blogs and catching up. nitro was sleeping on my bed with me but when i woke up after getting the 2 hours of sleep i got he wasnt there. he must have gotten tired and went to his own basket in the living room. i almost fell over him a couple minutes ago because i was going to the kitchen and he was laying in the middle of the floor and he jumped up just in time or there would have been an accident lol. my pa kristen is coming at 9. i bet she gets here early though. she’s good like that she’s never late in fact she’s always really early. i have to go see my nutritionist. i doubt i’ll have lost any weight. that disappoints me but my back being out put a damper on me doing any exercise. its much better now though so next week i’ll really go for it and exercise every day and hope to be down a lot of weight well at least 2 pounds. if i am down this week i will celebrate but i did eat a couple of things i shouldnt have so its doubtful i will be down, probably will be up and if i am i’ll be even more disappointed. i hate disappointing karen, and i dont want her to think i am not working hard because i really am. when i finish with karen and come home there is a lot that i need kristen to do around the house. things like mopping the floors, vacuming them, ironing clothes etc. my mom and sister did a lot yesterday but there is still a lot to get through. i’ll be going to Dublin on Friday and I cant wait. Its just to see a friend. We havent seen one another in about 2 years. It will be nice to catch up with him. He’s blind too. He wants me to help him with his new laptop, he is trying to get used to windows 10 and he isnt making much headway with it. I said I’d help him because i am more tech savey than he is. He has two dogs in the house, Yates, and Sweeney, both guide dogs, well Yates is his old dog, Sweeney is his current dog. So it will be a riot with 3 dogs in the house this weekend. Not to mention the amount of dog hair there will be lol. I’m sure the pups will have fun though.