Road to recovery

darkness, terror, deamons in the night
flashbacks, crying, you just dont feel right
questions unanswered, dread and despair
there is no freedom, no one to care
you are trained to do and not to think
telling? forget it
you wouldnt sleep a wink
but courage will come and one day you’ll tell
but don’t despair if people don’t take it very well
no matter what they say you are not to blame
you are a victim that shouldnt feel this pain
keep telling until someone will see
protection is needed, the truth will set you free
sometimes in the telling you’ll feel violated again
but recovery will come if only you begin
there is no escaping the facts you must face
forgive yourself in this long, hard race
there will be nights of terror and days of dread
sometimes you’ll struggle to get out of bed
you’ll want to hide, and scream, and shout
it will be awful, there is no doubt
the blackness enfolds the child within
death seems so welcoming before you even begin
but there is a pindrop of light at the top of the well
the climb to enlightenment, so hard you can tell
a whisper, a whimper, the echos sound so deep
you feel dirty, so small, and so weak
your like a child with no happiness to recall
compared with the terror of it all
there is no escaping the reminders so bleak
of the times you were made to feel like a freak
love and anger fight in the night
confusion added to a sorrowful plite
emotions, you’ll feel they are so real
place the blame where it belongs
dont make any deals
forgive yourself, you are not to blame
in this cruel but not unusual game
recovery will come if only you begin
so speak out, survive, and live again


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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