A Quiet Sunday

I’m feeling kind of bla today. My mood is low. I feel like I am headed for disaster. Like a train wreck is coming. And i cant seem to stop it.
So much for having a good day yesterday. I wish my good days would last. Unfortunately though the pain returns. The nightmares, flashbacks, low mood. All of it returns.
I’m trying to be gentle with myself. Trying to tell myself that this will pass and I will cope. I will be ok. It wont last forever, it simply cant. I had awful nightmares last night. Really intense ones which were graphic in nature and so scary. I woke up shaking and crying.
I’m still at my parents house. I decided to stay until tomorrow. I see dr. Barry tomorrow morning. And I also see Eileen tomorrow. Those two appointments are very much needed right now. I have missed dr. Barry while she’s been on holiday. I coped, but barely. It was hard but I guess I am proud of myself for managing for 10 days without her.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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