I have scared myself why do I do this to myself

I was chatting in the kitchen with mum. She had me look up stage one of lung cancer. What iPhone is it really scared me. What if she has cancer? What then. I think I will fall apart. I won’t be able to cope. I am really emotional right now. Feeling overwhelmed and apprehensive. I don’t want mum to have cancer.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

2 thoughts on “I have scared myself why do I do this to myself”

  1. Yeah, that is scary. It puts a knot in the pit of the stomach. The thing is, though, her having cancer is not half so bad as you _worrying about her having cancer. Your worrying about whether you’ll be able to cope probably won’t have a lot to do with whether you’ll actually be -able to cope. You’re stronger than you know and the worrying underminds that strength. Keep doing what you do to keep the worry at bay and don’t read anymore articles about cancer. I feel for you. In a way, you’re your own Dr. Barry and Eileen because you have a mind full of parts that need you to be strong for them. Hugs. xxx

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    1. I never thought about it like that, but you’re right. I do need to be strong for the parts. Do you need me. Thank you for your supportive as always. I really appreciate it very much. XX


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