I slept well last night. That makes a change. I had gotten up at six yesterday so I think that helped matters. I was tired by 8 PM. I went to bed early and read for a while. I didnt want to get up this morning. My alarm for taking my meds went off and I turned over and ignored it. Eventually though I did get up. I ate a banana and some grapes and drank a cup of tea. I rang my mom. Mom had gone back to my aunts last night after we got done at the garden centre. It was fun at the garden centre yesterday. There was a lot of us there, my aunts and cousins and mom and my sister all went. We all had lunch and looked around at the garden items for a while. There was an artist showing some of his art so we looked at that also. It felt good to get out of the house. It brightened my mood. One of the nurses from the weekend team had called me yesterday and I told her I was going to the garden centre and she said it was good that I was getting out of the house. To be honest I didnt find her all that great. She barely talked to me just asking me how I was doing but not going in to any great detail about things. I kind of felt like the call was pointless. I see dr. barry today. I also have therapy as well. Those two appointments will take most of the day. My aunt asked me yesterday how I was feeling about mom being sick. I told her I was very scared and worried. She told me to try to think positive, that nothings been confirmed yet. So that is what I am trying to do. Not that I wasnt trying to do it anyway because I was. I just have a sinking feeling that something is very wrong. I hope Im wrong.