im having a down sort of evening. everything feels blah. i just, i feel flat and low and like im drowning in emotion but i cant swim to the top. its like a black merky tar. and im sinking in it.
im trying to watch tv. im trying to listen to music. im trying to read. im trying to check email. nothing is working.
i just feel like i want to give up. it feels like a heavy weight is on my chest. pressing down, crushing me.
i am drowning, someone catch me before the blackness swallows me up?