so low

I want to give up.

I cant do it any more. I’m feeling so alone. So down. So dead.

I feel like somethings gotta give. I’m just so sad.

My whole body hurts. Tears spill out. I am just a sobbing wreck.

I need to end this, now.

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

20 thoughts on “so low”

  1. Someone is always listening. Don’t give up. You’re worth so much more.
    Every one goes through hard times, but don’t give up.
    I myself am going through a hard time but know that you’re not alone. It’s these times which you will look back on and realise how strong you can be.

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  2. We have to hang in there, my dear. Sometimes the pain seems unbearable, and we think we will be there forever, abandoned, with no one to comfort us. Please remember that this is depression lying to you. It shows you the world and yourself through a distorted mirror. Don’t believe it.

    You are a very dear person, open-hearted and warm. Your family loves you. Your WP extended family here loves you, too. It’s hard to feel that when you feel so low, but try to let it reach you.

    Have you talked to your doctors about how you are feeling? You deserve to get some help. Do you have a friend you can talk to? It helps if you can break that sense of being alone with it all. I am glad you were honest here, so we can take the opportunity to come back and tell you how valuable you are.

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    1. Thank you so much Q, I will call my friend, I do have a friend I can call, and I will also text my therapist and maybe I will ring the hospital as well and see if I can talk to someone there. All of you here on WordPress mean the world to me. I don’t know where I would be without all of my blogger friends. Xx


  3. So sorry you’re feeling bad right now. Keep using your resources. I hope that by the time you read this, the mood will have lifted somewhat. I’m so happy about your getting a job coach and how well the diet is going. I think you can look back at your positive posts and see that the facts don’t correspond with the feelings. I’m sending hugs for the feelings though. xxxx

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