i managed to sleep last night despite everything going on. i slept for more than what I usually sleep, about 5 hours total. I woke up at around 5 and got up. My PA came this morning and we just did some housework and i went to the grocery store to buy some water and fruit and crackers and nuts. My healthy eating plan is going well. I think I should be down a couple of pounds on Thursday when i get weighed. I hope so anyway. It would be nice if all my hard work payed off. Mom rang me this morning. She said she was up in the middle of the night because she couldnt breathe properly. She sat up and tried to sleep sitting up so that shed be able to breathe better. The hospital rang her and they had scheduled a breathing test for later today. So my sister is taking her. Im at the basement club this morning. I decided I wanted to get out of the house and be with other people. Its better for me if I stay busy and stay distracted. I have mentoring later this afternoon with colette. Im looking forward to it. Eileen rang me last night. We had a phone check in. She told me to stay in the moment, and be gentle with myself. Take good care of myself because if I dont care for myself I wont be able to be there for mom. I know she is right. She said I sounded really angry about moms situation. Angry and wishing I had answers. Thats how I am feeling. I am angry that this happened to mom. She doesnt deserve this.