right now I feel so suicidal. I just want to end it. I don’t want to be here. It is taking too much effort. My thoughts are swirling and my mind is racing. I keep pacing and trying to distract. This is a fucking nightmare! I cant live like this! I am doomed! I’ve been listening to this song on repeat. It speaks to me right now. LIsten to the lyrics they are so powerful. They say what I am feeling perfectly. Sad right now, sad and feeling alone and out of sorts.