Not sleeping

its carol anne. I should be asleep but i’m wide awake. I just cant settle. I think its because of all the emotional upheaval of tonight. I layed down with nitro and tried to drop off. but my head wouldn’t quiet. my thoughts whirled. I kept hearing weird sounds and I kept thinking someone was outside and I got scared so I got back up. now nitros gone to his own bed, sensible pup lol. meanwhile i’m just catching up on blog posts from friends blogs. and drinking tea. i’ll be busy tomorrow. my pa comes in the morning, that is if the weather isn’t too bad. she has a kind of long drive to my house from where she lives, and if the roads are icey she might not be able to make it. i’ll just hope for the best. if she does come I need to clean my house. and go pick up my injection from the pharmacy. I was supposed to get my injection last week but I forgot to place the order for the prescription so I had to wait until this week. i’m also going to the basement club tomorrow after my pa leaves. I have mentoring with Colette. I cant remember what we said we’d do in mentoring I think we were going to make a plan of some sort. I know Colette had asked me to think about ways I wanted to improve my life in 2017. to be honest I didn’t think too much about that. sometimes its hard for me to think about the future. if I think too far ahead I get suicidal. i’ll be going to my parents and staying there tomorrow night because I have the abdominal ultrasound on Wednesday and mom is going with me to that appointment. mom sees her gp on Wednesday and the nurse too about her COPD. i’ll be going with her to her appointments as well. first though i’ll see dr. barry on Wednesday morning. I have to make it to that appointment no matter what happens. the womens group at the basement club are meeting for a meal on Wednesday evening but I doubt I will be able to go. for one thing nitro wont be coming with me to the hospital when I go to get my ultrasound. i’d have stayed at my mom and dads place on Wednesday night as well but my pa comes Thursday morning so I cant do that. so i’m going to have to miss out on the womens group meal this time around.

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “Not sleeping”

  1. This is a time when it would be good to have something really boring to listen to. You need something that is so deadly dull that you’d fall asleep just listening. I would imagine YouTube has something that would do the trick as they have a little bit of everything. I hope all goes well on Wednesday, both for you and your mom. I also hope the weather behaves itself. Where I am in Texas, we’re even starting to get cold weather. We might even have a cold winter.

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    1. Are you serious? Texas is getting cold weather? No that’s a first. Is in Texas supposed to be really hot like in the 90s most of the time. I hope Wednesday goes okay. I’m kind of nervous and anxious about it.


      1. Texas is a very big state and so has several different climates. I live kind of in the middle of the state and the temperature in the summer can be in the upper 90s and even 100s. It makes you want to take everything off including your skin. (grin) the winters are mostly rather mild with a few days being below freezing-32F-. I’ve lived here in San Antonio over 20 years and the coldest I think I remember is around 20 degrees. We don’t get snow where I am, but there are parts of Texas that get lots of snow. We even have really weird things happen where a place may get a foot of snow and all the towns around it get nothing. that happened a few years ago. the little town got one foot of snow and then it melted right away because the little town’s temperature went right up to 50 degrees. That was really strange.

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      2. I’ve heard there are lots of bugs in Texas like hornets and other stinging things I wouldn’t like to live there. I like heat and sun but I still don’t want to live there if there are a lot of insects and bugs. Here in Ireland the most we get our bees and wasps and maybe a few spiders that aren’t poisonous. We don’t get aunts or any other kind of stinging thing


  2. I hope Wednesday goes ok for you and your mom. My mom has a little bit of COPD and emphysema. I think within a year she’ll have to be place on oxygen. She smoked a lot throughout my lifetime. She quit before she had her bypass surgery, that was almost 10 yrs ago. I hope you are able to sleep soon. Hugs

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