Writing my therapist

I wrote Eileen a short email. It just said this.

hi eileen
i am feeling better now, i did what you said, went back to bed and stayed there most of today. i’m feeling really sad that i had to miss our session. i really needed to go to therapy. i feel angry that i had to get sick because i really needed the time with you.i neede the connection so much right now.
i’m very depressed and feeling very emotional. i’m trying to regulate but it isnt easy.
i need a hug. i just need to hear you say it is going to be ok and give me a hug and reassure all of us.
carol anne

I feel better having written to her. Now she knows I didn’t want to miss therapy. And I’m not avoiding, I was sick. Part of me thinks she may think I am avoiding going. But I sware I’m not.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

2 thoughts on “Writing my therapist”

  1. Big hugs from me to you Carol Anne ❤ I'm sure your therapist understands and I do hope you start feeling better soon. It's hard to feel better when you just feel so many emotions but allow yourself to let them out because that is therapy in its own right. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers ❤

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