FUCKING URGES

I’M PISSY. I WANT TO CUT. I WANT TO DRINK. I WANT TO DO THE MOST CRAZY DAMN IMPULSIVE THING I CAN THINK OF. I WANT TO BUT I PROBABLY WONT. BUT DAMN MY URGE TO JUST DO SOME CRAZY ASS SHIT IS STRONG TONIGHT. REALLY FUCKING STRONG.
BINGING ON ALCOHOL OR CUTTING SEEMS PREFERABLE TO TAKING A LOAD OF PILLS, MY THOUGHTS ARE SPINNING OUT OF CONTROL. FUCK IT I NEED TO JUST GO TO BED.
LIZ

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

7 thoughts on “FUCKING URGES”

  1. Liz, if you need to talk, I am here. I will be up the next few hours if you don’t go to bed. I hope you don’t hurt yourself. I know you are stressed out right now but I care about you, even though we are far away from one another. hugs, if you’ll take them.

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