Wednesdays dr. barry apt

saw dr. barry yesterday. it was a good appointment.
we talked about therapy and the recent phone check in we had. i told her about trying to get my records back, and how i was going to, but now I’ve changed my mind and dont want them. She thinks I’m doing the right thing, that it would probably not be such a good idea and would probably make me very unstable to see what is in those records.
I told her I’d been working on sitting with my feelings, feelings of being ok, having gotten through halloween, and how I was having difficulty with that. How I just cant seem to sit with the feelings. I told her how I hadnt ever really discussed it in therapy before or with anyone at all for that matter. She said it was a massive breakthrough and she think it is huge. She said since our recent challenging conversation, remember the one a few weeks ago where she felt like I was on a different page to her? Well she said she feels like our relationship has shifted since that conversation. She said she cant put her finger on it and doesnt know what the right word for it is but that its a good thing. She said we are doing really well and she was proud of us. That was good to hear from her but also made me feel slightly embarrassed and uncomfortable. She said she realised that it was hard for me to hear that and that she understood but she just wanted to validate that things havent been easy for us lately and how well we’re managing things.
We had to cut the appointment short because she got a phone call, her child minder was ill so she had to ring around to find someone to pick her kids up from school. I didnt mind having to cut it short, she hardly ever does that so it was ok.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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