I got a letter today from the hospital. I need to go in for an ultrasound of my abdomen in a couple of week. this is going to make my ptsd flare up! I am so nervous about it. I don’t want to go in. I feel like canceling it but I wont because it is so hard to get an appointment. but oh boy. people touching me? strangers? undressing in front of strangers? I know they said on the letter it isn’t that invasive but god it feels like it to me! I might ask dr. barry if I can take a Haldol before I have to go in. maybe that will help. I sincerely hope so. my mom is going with me and i’ll probably ask her to stay in the room with me if that’s possible. oh wait, that wont be possible. damn! the scan is an x ray type scan so she wont be able to come in! damn damn damn! the letter said the ultrasound takes between 5 and 30 minutes. i’m not supposed to eat or drink for six hours before the test. i’ll be just glad when its over. my anxiety is through the roof when I think about it!