trauma, oh boy, email to eileen

when the flood gates open and a flood of grief and trauma memories hit you smack in the face what do you do?
you sit and shake and cry and flail and pace and vomit and fall in a heap on the floor. Yes, that is me…that is what I did tonight.
this time of year just fucking sucks. i thought i was ok. i thought i could make it. i thought i would not get overwhelmed. but i’m overwhelmed. i’m triggered. and i’m not going to make it.
damn!
i could use some hugs. and some words of wisdom.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

19 thoughts on “trauma, oh boy, email to eileen”

  1. So sorry I know that the time of the year is so difficult. I am struggling too with the overwhelming fear, the special dates. But I know that there is something the perpetrators could NOT touch. Our inmost being. I give you thousands of warm hugs from Switzerland and a little ray of sunshine. Never ever give up.

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      1. Yes I have a very good therapist but not many friends anymore. My husband and my children give me hope and my faith in God who will finally give us justice.

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  2. *biggianthugs* You are an amazingly strong person. Every day you are getting stronger. Some days will always be worse for you than others , but you keep moving forward and that is amazing 🙂

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  3. Some days are always going to be harder than others – and you have been working very hard on your skills, so I know that you will be able to get back on track. I don’t know many helpful grounding tips, other than soothing music and meditation…and flashbacks can be difficult to separate from when a full recollection is happening. Staying mindful and in the present, somehow, would be a helpful tool.

    *HUGS*

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