High anxiety around talking to dr. barry this morning about job related issues

i’m having a lot of anxiety right now. i need to talk to dr. barry this morning and tell her i applied for the job as a mental health peer support worker. she is unaware that i did that. i’m nervous in case she’ll think its a bad idea. in case she says i shouldnt have did that. i want her to believe in me. but i’m afraid in case she’ll think i’m not stable enough to do the job. i think the fact that she works in the mental health field, is making my anxiety worse. she knows what that entails. how stable you need to be. i guess i am just second guessing my abilities. and i think she will too. i just want her to believe in me and encourage me to go for it. and i think she probably will. i’m just scared i guess. i know what a massive undertaking this is. i cant really do anything if she says i shouldnt have applied, because the application has already been sent in, and now its just a waiting game to see if i get an interview or not. this is a huge deal to us though. we just want dr. barrys approval for this. we have talked about working part time in the past. and she was in favour of that. but will she be in favour of me doing a job that involves working directly with mental health issues and having clients with mental illness? i just dont know. but i hope so. i’ll keep all of you posted.

Author: Carol anne

I am in my mid 40's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland. View all posts by Carol anne