I’m not leaving you, your leaving me!

so last week in therapy me and eileen had a major discussion. Around getting better and what that would look like. and i told her we’re afraid. we dont want her to leave us. ever. to which she said to me:
“when its time to end therapy, it will be you who ends it, not me!”
That was a huge surprise to me. i hadnt ever thought of me doing the leaving. it seems so weird. right now it seems like that will never happen.
“it wont be now, or even a year or two away, but some day, it will happen!” she said.
“really?” I mused, “that will happen, I will end therapy?”
I cant quite comprehend it!
She said we have a long way to go before it will happen though. But eventually therapy will come to a natural end. I’ll be healed…whatever healed looks like.
I just cant believe that! Has anyone else ever thought of that, of what it will look like when your therapy ends?
I’m still reflecting on it now.
She wont leave me, but I will leave her eventually? Wow!

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

20 thoughts on “I’m not leaving you, your leaving me!”

      1. Hey! Where is the group? If it is on Facebook I would have to politely decline 🙂 I am trying to make sure I stay as private as possible. I will continue to follow here though!

        If it isn’t on Facebook I am all years.

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      2. No it’s not a Facebook group. It’s just a group I created for my blog friends and other friends to keep them in the loop about my life, I can post more updates to that group and be more open on there, it’s just done through email you just subscribe and then you will receive the updates I will send an invite to you via email and if you want to reply you just hit reply in your email program and it goes directly to me

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  1. That was the hardest thing for me to think about with my therapist. That it would come to a natural end. For me its been ending for a while now. Our conversations have changed and I trust that he will always remember me and care about me. That trust was the biggest change that I noticed within myself. It will happen naturally someday and you will be okay.

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