it hasnt been the greatest of nights. i havent slept at all. some of you might know i run an email list for people who have did and other dissociative disorders. well earlier tonight there was a lot of drama on the list. so i was dealing with that. then taylor got triggered and so i was dealing with her. she was hearing voices and having flashbacks. i hate seeing the kids so upset and so distressed. it breaks my heart. i made her some hot chocolate and i sat with her for a while until she calmed down. other than that i watched some tv and did some email and texted some friends. i was going to read but then i changed my mind. i am seeing dr. barry this morning. i think we are going to have a good appointment. then when i finish with dr. barry i am going to go to the basement club for the rest of the day. i am tired right now but its nothing that a couple cups of coffee wont fix. ok, well, time to go do my exercise on the treadmill. catch you all later.