dr. barry and therapy too

we saw dr. barry today and we also had therapy. i’ll talk about our dr. barry apt first.
we managed to work things out. i was very nervous going into the appointment. i even dreamed about dr. barry last night thats how nervous i was. but i showed up and we talked and things have been resolved between us now which i am glad about.
i told her i had processed a lot in therapy last week. she asked me what my thoughts were regarding what she said last week about me having an agenda and trying to put myself in the hospital having already made my mind up to go in etc etc. i said i thought she had a point and that yes i was doing that because it seemed like the easy option at the time. part of me doesnt want to go into hospital though. another part of me does because i want to be taken care of and i want someone else to make all of the decisions about my life for me. she said she understood that but that i needed to trust her to make the call about when hospitalisation is warranted, because, there will be times when its needed. i agreed.
we talked about meds and she did not increase my naltrexone today she said now is not the right time to increase it but she has increased my prozac from 40 mg to 60 mg. she said she will leave me on that dose for 5 or 6 weeks and if there is no improvement she will take me off of the med completely. she doesnt want me on too many meds, i dont want to be on too many either so i am glad she is not a fan of loads of meds.
we talked about the reassessment and the social worker karen is trying to sort that side of things out. she has to apply for funding and stuff. karen is also working on the appleals process so that i can appeal the decision not to grant me more PA hours. i’m really not looking forward to that appeal process i think it will be a long and very drawn out process.
then this afternoon i saw eileen. we talked about the way that the dynamic of both the realtionship i have with eileen and then the one i have with dr. barry is quite similar in nature. she told me she is going to talk to dr. barry to see if we can clear things up because right now there is a lot of confusion about whose doing what and we need to make things a little clearer so that the lines arent so blurred. both of them are like therapists to me right now, even though technically dr. barry is just my psychiatrist. so eileen is going to phone dr. barry and have a chat to her. that was mostly all we talked about today in therapy was the two relationships and the confusion surrounding them.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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