things are bad here right now. we’ve been having awful hallucinations. it feels like bugs are crawling on us. also been hearing voices, not the insiders voices, these are male voices, telling us to harm ourselves. i feel like shit. i am at my parents house, i went there last night. i know i said i wouldnt go, but mom persuaded me to go. to be honest i’m glad i did go. they dont get it but just being with other people is helping. the weekend team will be calling me in a little while. they might offer to put me in the hospital but i am going to ask if i can wait and see dr. barry tomorrow. she knows me and knows my history and symptoms better than anyone. she will know if i need to go to the hospital. but thats looking likely i think. the hallucinations are so vivid, the flashbacks are awful. i am feeling so overwehlmed and very triggered. i think hospital would be the best place for us right now. it would keep us safe. right now we just feel so suicidal and like hurting ourselves.