its another bad weekend for us this weekend. we’re still not feeling too stable but we are trying to act and be normal around our family. dr. barry encouraged us that if things felt bad we should go stay at our parents house. so yesterday evening we came here and we are staying here until sunday. not sure how much it is going to help though. dr. barry also asked if we’d like to have the weekend team again this weekend. i hesitated but eventually said ok and i just hope that whoever calls me this weekend will be nice and that they’ll also be supportive. didnt get up to much today. read for a long time. i’m reading cut by cathy glass and am almost finished it. the next book i want to read is a short book called the reason i jump and is written by a 13 year old autistic boy. it looked good so i am looking forward to reading it. i’ll probably finish cut tonight and start that book tomorrow. my pa isnt coming tomorrow because her son is graduating from high school so we changed days and she is going to come on monday instead. thats ok though it suits me. i told dr. barry i only needed a phone check in on both saturday and sunday from the weekend team so they arent coming to see me and i am not going to see them either. if i got really suicidal they probably would come to assess me to see if i needed to be admitted to the hospital. lets hope i dont need that this weekend though. it always seems that things pop up just as life is just getting back on track , its then that curve balls are thrown. anyway hope all of you are ok and enjoying the start of your weekend.