today i saw eileen. we had a very intense session. we were very dissociative during most of it. she spent a lot of time just walking us around the room, having us touch objects, she kept telling us to come back to her, and open our eyes. not sure what was going on with the closing of our eyes. all i can think is because we were tired from lack of sleep last night we may have been more sleepy than usual. anyway a new insider kira came out. she is 11 and she has memories of an abuser chad raping us in 2007. she talked for a while to eileen about how scared she was of the memories, about how she wasnt able to share her memories with the rest of us yet. eileen was very supportive to her as she always is with all of us. she kept reaffirming to her that it was 2016 now and we were safe and that me and liz wouldnt let anything happen to her, kira didnt even know who eileen was or why we were sitting in her office. i also had some time with her which was nice. i mostly talked to her about home supports and things surrounding what needs to happen to establish those. liz also had time with her. they talked about attachment stuff and her self harm urges and about system safety. it was a very good session.